blessed me

君在何方？？？

君可莫让伊哀矣，
彻夜难眠思君也，
心脾煎熬念君也，
极至殷盼君临至。

pls:
haha,
you please don't let me down!!!!
all of my glory is now holding in your hand ><'
if fail then my parents will chop me into pieces!!!!!!!
oh my god!!!!!!!!!!

LoV3 ^^V

如果毕业证书是结婚证的话，
那么我爱你，
三年半以后我们结婚吧！

半兽人---早期的作品

邪魅的 隐没黯黑里
嘴角扬起 凝望着
欲望 蠢蠢欲动
身影掠起 血四溅
鲜血的气息 刺激着味蕾
滚烫的液体 在嘴里绽放着
觉醒的细胞 渴望着
下一秒 下一个猎物

梦 vs 影

觅君之影，
却欲忘君之梦；
影与梦俩相叠，
难辨也。

sorry ><'

God!!!
Look AT ME!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT I'VE DONE??!!!!!
i fail as being a good daughter ><'
i'm speechless when YOU are having quarreling,
just with dropping tears and keep silence.

Pls:
I'M SO USELESS,
I H.A.T.E myself for being so FREAKING WEAK.

“mEmorAbLe dAy”

- 27 Aug 2009 - physiology test= the end of the world -

haiz,
after the stupid test,
i wanna to cry already,
i do a lot of mistakes!!!!!!!!!!

who say i didn't study the physiology???
but the teacher ask “compare and contrast the muscle tissue fiber”
gosh...
we got numerous questions for each chapter you abide it and set this kind of the stupid question, who know???
for me,
i really dun know ><

then the teacher ask the mitotic phase...
i thought is prophase, metaphase, anaphase and telophase...
then i throw up all the things i have memerised happily, but still wrong and the teacher want those G0, G1, interphase and so on....

then there is a blur veniscular transport diagram and how i know what should i write???
i know is exocytosis but you say "transport without using the cell membrane"
ei, i thought no matter is active, passive and veniscular transport all are needed to pass through the cell membrane???

haiz...
what is this???
then the MCQ still got the minus mark marking ><'
haiz...
how???
how how??????
how how how?????????
i scare i will fail the test ><

i study a lot...
i memeorise those study anatomy terms, organelles, 11 systems, transport (active, passive and transport),
i just not really familiar with the tissues only...
then the teacher set the question which is sub subtissue...
haiz...
so fed up ><'

><'

hmmm,
today i really no mood at all in doing all my assignments ><
i also dun know why???!!!!!
sometimes really feel so exhausted.....

haiz,
recently i feel myself extreme crazy ><
all is mind is like flashing of a stupid's when i'm around the school...
oh my gosh!!!!!!!!
how do i survive for the next few years here???!!!!

fiRst wEek iN UCSI

haha...
just starting my school life about a week...
full of report reading materials, tutorials and lab report....
basically,
two reports for a week and sometimes having tutorial as well right after next week...
so theoretically you all should be happy be if found out i still survive in this world...
finally can feel the tension for mule and chicken when they rush their reports....
oh....
my friend always tell me she feels stress and going frustrated in the first week...
but then i told her i feel more stress after i see her so stress...
haha....

haiz...
the school quite troublesome....
after you go see clinic which locate inside the campus...
you still need to pay money in financial department and not in the counter there...
you imagine a sick person still need to walk to the financial department only can get the medicine...
so everything related to money need to pay at financial department ><

9-7-09
in the early morning...
5.15am (loo 2009)
three free people call me...
(chicken, hoong and a gong)
you all know for what????
ask me go urination....
oh gosh....
what is this??!!!!!
you three really full dead soon...
i'm planning to buy a huge oven to roast you all....
haha...
then go yamcha with them at samosa near my campus there...
the food there quite nice ^^

10-7-09
i go sign up for the digi campus plan...
1 sen for digi users whereas 6 sens for other networks...
after you spend 2 bucks on calling then you can call those digi lines for free throughout the whole day...
hahaha...
yesterday i want to call mie jie but she called me first...
but then the line got bit retarded ><
always no line.... （T.T）

pls:
hope i'm still survive for the next following weeks
god bless ^^

orientation day + eating durian

haha,
today is the second day for my orientation...
okay i lost in this day ><
i'm don't know which is block A-MPH...
i just move in when i see the staircase since my brother point at this direction...
oh gosh，
after i step on then only i found out i'm in wrong place, library...

wheezz,
about 9.30,
we start our games...
then we have played plenty of games...
haha...
i take part in acting action =='
you guyz just have little guessing on what i'm going to act....
haha...
me is acting as a pregnant woman who is going to deliver ><
and my partner, mun yee is acting as my husband...
haha...
i cn't hold my smiling when i'm acting in front of the stage...

oh...
suit von is good at guessing!!!
during the guessing session,
she guess the correct answer within short time...
haha...

then around 12.10pm,
our seniors bring us for lunch at mc.donald...
mina, kar ying and terrina...
(i don't know how to spell ><' )
then while having the lunch...
we discuss about the things we have to perform later...
(we are giving a toilet paper and we have to highlight on this things during our performance)
haha...
our toilet boy, patrick..
really acting lively...
we all can't stop laughing at the backstage...
then our performance end with a song,
"oh my darling, oh my darling,
oh my darling, toilet paper,
after used and flushed,
end of the story, toilet paper"
(produced by our lyric maker, winnie ^^)

haha,
there is a mentor-mentee system...
untill now i have no idea on who is my mentor =='
i haven't call the mentor yet ><

haha...
then after 4.30pm,
we finally release from hell...
yeah...
but then when i call my brother..
he still in sunway for the health campaign ><
so i go yam cha with mun yee and jessica in old town...

haha..
my dad brought us durian...
but since my dad is out for his badminton funzz...
so the most skillful human after my dad is going to peel the durian for us...
of course not my brother...
haha...
is my brother's friend...

wheezz,
a happy day before the school start...
but then heard those seniors say..
we will die of assignments and reports after this...
><

orientation day =='

oh my gosh...
today orientation day is super bored ><
starting from welcome speech by encik abu bakar at 9.30am...
then end with welcoming and introductory talk by Dean, Faculty of pharmaceutical Sciences, Assoc.Prof.Dr.Yeong SW at 4.30pm...
then in between the time...
we have given briefing by a lot of people...
haha...
really hardly to remember their names right now...

wheez...
then i'm feel extreme tired after back home...
and i found out my house gather few number of senior but just fresh graduate...
after they know me enrolled pharmacy year 1...
they say,
"welcome to UCSI"
err...
sound like pulling me to the hell....
ohya...
there is a senior stay at house for few days...
haha..
feel kinda weird also...

hahaha..
i made some new friends there...
wah..
some of them are from kedah, ipoh and perak...
(hehe, if not mistaken la~~)
very very very far....
some more got one people from puchong~~
from the same high school as me ^^
my junior and she still remember me..
so touching...
is that means that i'm quite famous in the 8 miles??!!!!
hahaha,
car pull car pull car pull!!!!!

Pls:
hope tomorrow orientation wouldn't be so bored...
since tomorrow is playing games!!!!
wheezz...
just hope don't be bored ><

i'm w0ndErINg

today,
i totally feel fed up extremely...
i feel wanna cry out but holding my tears tightly...
this action will make me become more useless and silly only...
really wondering what is meant by "friend"??!!!!

okay fine...
whatever the matter is...
i really feel tired of thinking this kind of things recently...
so just forget about it...
may be i'm the one who didn't consider or concern for others...
okay,
i'm worst ><

vIsItiNg dAy to my working place ^^

wheezz..
before my school start...
i decide to visit my evilness by holding 3 packets of Mamee....
haiz...
if i got money, i will buy chocolate or hello panda to you all...
but recently really ><'
haha...
finally realized that i'm really welcomed by my students...
i haven't moved inside the classroom...
then was surrounded by the students..
got some of the students are shouted，
“teacher lim is coming back...”
all of sudden...
the kids run toward me crazily and i was hug tightly buy the students...
haha...
i really scare they will break my pair of fragile leg ><
joking joking...
feeling the atmosphere so touching....

hehe,
the my boss jokes with me and say,
"teacher lim you really like a honey, all the bees are attracted by you"
haha..
then i wonder,
"may be they are attracted by Mamee only, LoL"

wheezz,
then got some parents come to me and say...
"teacher lim, you so nice, treat the students so good and always bring some snacks to the kids"
"haha, i like the kids very much, they very cute..."
"haha, they like you as well...."

haha,
i really feel my hardship for months in there is valuable...
but then i hope next time i won't work there again...
the smiling of the kids hunt and trap me strongly now... ><

when i see the new teacher guiding their homework...
she gives me a bad impression...
not i want to say she not good...
but in term of teaching she really =='
quite irresponsible....

Pls:
kid's world really good...
no worries...
the adults' world really complicated
><

hEy gIrLs

hey girls...
what is meant by "just to inform you bla bla bla....."
is this meant by i'm not willing hang around with you guys??!!!
after i hear this...
i'm really freaking out...

hey girls,
HOW LONG YOU HAVE KNOWN ME?!!!
is YEARS....
you should know my parents are strictly not allowing me out at night....
but somehow still want me try to make this??!!!
i have those arguments with my parents about these before...
but now i extreme doubt whether i'm doing wrong??!!!
is this valuable for me??!!!
i suddenly feel exhausted ><
is there any wrong for my parents to worry about me???
suddenly i feel so sorry for my parents from my heart deeply...

hey girls,
the most shocking me is when the time we plan to go redbox....
insisting me to find a student card...
what if i can't find a student card??!!!!
pay for the rest??!!!!
some more i tell you i'm in deep poor recently...
ok, it's just fine...
the things make me feel anger is you seem shock when i told you that my sister don't have a student card....
oh...
may be i'm wrong..
i should use the word "wonder"....
hahaha...
just like i'm not trustable...
therefore i only talk few words the left the conversation...
if not i scare i will burst out that night...

hey girls...
did i force you to come out yam cha with me when you are busying with assignments, reports or even working...
no right???
but why you will persuade me to take leave when i'm working???
find my hard time to meet you when i'm having exam or assignments...
or even have to go out at night at those unfamiliar places...
seriously i really unlike kL area ><

pls:
haha,
got little fussy here,
everything will be fine tomorrow...

sCh0oLiNg s0oN ><

hahaha...
i'm officially a pharmacy student in UCSI after 3 more days....
the feeling is quite complicated...
this is the dream i have spent 3 years to succeed it...
so i should be glad with it right???
but after having a quite glance with those evilness notes...
i hold my breathe tightly...
oh gosh...
plenty of the notes consist of biology scope ><
i feel like dying already...
who ask me phobia to the biology deeply since i know it ><

haiz...
i get my timetable some more~~
its super retarded ><
all my classes end at 6pm except friday....
that's means i will have not only witness those traffic jam scenes in my way home but also experience it too...
oh...
it's really extreme interesting journey...
haha..
car pull will be a good idea if i find any live in Puchong ^^

hehe,
now i'm imagining my orientation day...
wearing formal attire and walking with heels...
i'm sweating...
hope wouldn't be bored like taylors ><
please just don't give briefing for a whole day only...
talking so long not good for your respiratory system...
siting so long will weaken my nervous system...

haha...
i heard my brother the orientation is held by year 2 students...
but the problems i know no one from year 2 ><

Pls:
if they bully me...
will my brother hold the justice for me??
oh...
sure he will...
but existing in my dream only...
hahaha

random post ><

oh my gosh~~
recently i feel myself like a lotus eater,
leading my life aimlessly ><
i'm doing nothing for my revision for this few days,
tend to peace my soul by just lying on the bed and staring the ceiling...
may be thinking what i'm being now after having my long break...
but sometimes i have successfully tighten my friendship bond with my high school friends...
since i will hard to manage my time to hang out when my school start later...
so better hang out now...
haha...

-shogun buffet-reunion-dai shou's hse-

oh my gosh~~
i don't know what have happen on me today~~
what i know is i'm torturing my stomach for almost half of the day~
i hope my stomach won't hate me ><
in the early morning...
i drink a cup of milk with corn flake
(my favourite breakfast) *wink*
then i fly to my boss there~~
wheezzzz..
my boss belanja me shogun buffet at sunway there~~
actually i have struggled whether want to go or not~~
but then i want to give a gold chance to my boss to show her sincerity on me~~
so lastly i made up my mind to go there~~
haha....

so i keep on feeding my stomach with foods from 12.15pm to 4:45pm...
realize my stomach really elastic and can hold plenty of food...
but then i got a bit scare my stomach will suddenly burst up randomly>< me n teacher zheng take lots of sushi, soup, cake, tempura and so on~~
wheezzz...
both of us are craving the cheesy food~~
we keep on take chocolate and cheesy food...
but then got a teacher....
really totally different from us...
she gets all those extreme healthy food...
like vegetarian roll, tomatoes, beans those stuff..
oh my gosh~~
is this teacher consider a human in this earth???
haha...
jk jk jk

oh...
then after this...
i move to another destination....
me n my family all fly to bangsar village to have dinner with my dai shou's family there~~
haha...
then i eat again at reunion there...
i eat quite lot~~
the prawn really tasty..
i like this dishes the most ><
haha....
having a great dinner with them~~

after having dinner...
then we fly to my dai shou's house~~
both of our family celebrate father's day together....

Pls:
for sure i'm eating a piece of cake....
for sure i'm full now...
for sure i'm can't sleep now...
for sure i'm hanging aroung now..
for sure i'm writing a blog now....
for sure i'm nothing to do now...
for sure i'm crapping now....

haha...
i think today is a day for my stomach..
to show its royality for me..
or a day for my digestive system...
to show its still functioning great...
or a day for me....
to show i'm actually can eat a lot???

hang with my dai shou's family

-10 Jun 2009-

last night dai shou ask me whether want go shopping with her or not...
then i laughed and said "see tomorrow can wake up or not first..."
(because i have no money ><)
then in the early morning my brother ask me to come along...
so i settle everything and follow him...
"haha, i no need bring my purse right??"
quite assuring when know no need...

haha...
then we move to fetch them and fly to one utama...
hahaha...
i realise i can crap to her sister...


wheezz...
my brother bought me HELLO PANDA, MEIJI!!!!
yeah..
i love my brother...
finally find some sibling's love from him...
haha....

then we move to shogun to eat buffet...
i'm not tend to eat sashimi ><
but then my brother ask me try （==’）
ohhhh...
when the food is rotating inside my mouth...
my taste bud is bursting...
the feeling is like you are eating the lively animal...
luckily those still can acceptable...
i really don't dare to eat the oyster...
ohh....
its disgusting~~
hahaha..
i eat quite a lot~~
like tempura, anago yaki, beijing duck, cooked oyster, pudding, sushi, ice-cream, smash potato and so on....
wheezzz...
i like the mashed potato so much ^^

after having buffet then we go shopping~~
then i bought one formal shirt in padini~~
really cheap, human....
its oni 29bucks after having discount...
haha...

after shopping around then we go eat dessert....
we order one honeydew toufa, durian pan cake and one hai dai ye~~
the durian pan cake,
its fascinating~~~
it can compare to the durian puff in kota raya there ^^

huray!!
finally got someone bring my honey to repair!!!!
the honk is saved
but then i found out something weird!!!!
they just change my front tyres only （= =）’’
the feeling just like one leg wear new shoes and one leg wear old shoes
its weird ><

my eldest brother back home

-9 Jun 2009-

wheezz...
my eldest bother finally back home ^^
sweating...
im looking forward his chocolate but then nothing from him...
sobbing sobbing sobbing
then my mum ask me come along with my elder brother to KLIA

"咪，做么要怡跟着来？她又不识路？"
“有伴嘛！”
“我给胆你咯...”

then we wait outside for along half an hour....
if i know so bored...
then i sleep at home la....
what is this??!!!
just because my mum say...
"show your sibling's love"

haha..
then bring my dai shou home..
then my dai shou's daddy bring us yam cha at steven's corner...
the food ok ok~~
the mee goreng quite salty...
so i eat half only><
that day i back home at 1sth...
then my mum complaint my room too messy...
and my sis leaved message to me...
"姐，记得你回来的时候叫我起身，很重要的，因为我有数学题不会做。记得要叫我。重要的..."
sweating...
haha..
then i clean my room and solving her stupid question...
so i slept at 3sth...

yeah...
im super tired and wiped out><

sing k with jp n hi

-7 jun2009-

haha...
actually my parents want bring us to IOI Mall...
however..
the plan change when they need to go temple...
so i ask jye ping to visit jia pei's house...

but before that we go han iung's house and celebrate his birthday..
yes,
you are right...
cake need money and i used up all the money ><
can i hate him a???

haha...
then i borrowed many cds from him....
after that we watch "王的男人" at his house...
but then quite bored...
so we decide move to next destination...
and we all decide to go jia pei's house...
however,
the plan is totally spoilt since we move newayz...
haha...
then han iung paid about 100bucks for it...
yes...
i owe him 30bucks ><
can i ask him forget about it???
haha...

haha, special for penguin

-6 Jun2009-

haha...
so sad for can't hang out with you...
since my purse left 10bucks...
so i think i can't survive myself in mid valley with these...
haha..
so you enjoy your shopping there ^^

sing k with lok you gang

-5 Jun 2009-

yes, you right....
my purse is empty....
so when bell asked me out to sing k...
actually i want to refuse since i'm really in deep poor already...
but then xian will have her vocation in new zealand next monday...
so i need to go out since we will have less chance to meet each other since i'm going to have my class after 2July...

then i go see my petrol...
all my cold sweat n hot sweat came out since it almost dry out...
luckily that night my parents bring us to having dinner outside....
then my sweetest daddy filled up the petrol till full tank...

"你要打多少？"
“随缘啦！不过就多多益善”
“30？”
“酱好像少了点诚意...”
“哈哈，就50啦”

later i ask my mum for money to buy the egg tart for my wah zhai uncle...
since last time i buy egg tart for parents...
then my mum said why not buy more for the uncle...
sweating...
i where got money??!!!
haha...
then my lovely mum sponsor me 50bucks
the term and condition i have to buy 10egg tart for the uncle

yeah,
then i have settled petrol and money problems...
the last problems is i don't have student id!!!!
so i ask my brother to lend one for me...
ohyeah,
its great since he manage to dig one for me...
here,
Thank for my senior since she lend me her student card ^^
i love you forever...

in the early morning
i flied tmn.desa to fetch xian and bell...
this is the further place i know...
haha...
then bell direct me to mid.valley....
hope this time her boyfriend didn't say 一路顺风 to her again ><

then we rushed the buy "seventeen again" ticket....
after ran to redbox...
haha....
bell still the same...
love the stupid song "dai guo"
then we go out took the buffet outside...
wah...
its really delicious
i like the chocolate pudding!!!! ^^
the oyster not bad also...
whezzz...
xian and bell like the chocolate cake...

then we go sang and crapped till 1:30pm in redbox...
after that we rushed to cinema to watch movie...
wah....
the young main character very handsome...
really an apple of eyes ^^

after watcing movie...
we go shop around..
then we are having tea at ??? (i don't know the place ><)
haha...
we ate you zha guai and soya there....
its quite nice ^^
then both of us start gossip time till 6sth...
then i fetch xian home....
haha...
no need trouble kai ma to fetch xian home...
since bell is there to direct me back home from xian's house...

haha...
let see how much i have given to mid valley today...
redbox:11.50bucks
movie:7bucks
tea:3.90bucks
egg tart plus ham dan sou：17bucks
haha..
den 40bucks is gone....
that means i left 10bucks...

sing k with a chicken

-2Jun2009-

this is quite random...
when i'm having my lunch and watching movie's time...
chicken asked me to go sing k...
mie jie cant join us since she got class ><
then a gong is earning money...
so only left two of us ><

oh my gosh,
sing with a chicken...
he only know how to hold the mike and sing "kok kok kok"
-his favorite song-

haha...
then i filled my purse up to 35bucks and flied to taylors
(feel touching when my brother sponsor me 15bucks, but then the feeling gone after my brother take all the rest of my money after i'm back home ><)

if not mistaken,
then we sing from 3 to 7pm...
since my throat is going to break down after it...
feel so sorry for cc n robin since can't go sing k tomorrow with them...
so they cancel the plan to redbox and go for lunch at IOI Mall
(haha, i didn't go since my purse is empty ><)

ohyeah...
this time cost me 26bucks (T.T)

hang out with a buffalo ^^

-1 Jun 2009-

In the early in the morning,
i took bus to mid valley....
then i waited buffalo at guardian there...
wheezz
the buffalo is a bit late...
may be i wait her at the wrong place..
should i wait her at Zoo?!!
haha...
don't whack me >< style="font-size:180%;">sushi king for lunch~~
haha...
i took few plates of sushi and eat...
then mie jie order a set of meal...
some more with yakult....

wheezzz
then we start shopping after having lunch.
haiz...
retarded >< style="color: rgb(0, 204, 204); font-weight: bold;">need to wear formal clothes to school....
so i have to spied around where got formal clothes with great price...

then having a long distance walking...
our legs start to have arguments to us...
so we have to find out a place to settle this...
haha..
then we settle at mc.donald....
wheezz..
we both ate ice-cream there ^^

haha....
then later we move to guardian again...
i have shown my little supports to nivea, nair, clean and clear...

wheezz...
before back home...
i bought egg tarts for my family...
the taste really fascinating...

haha....
my brother come here to fetch me back home...
then with the mangkuk...
so i sat on back-seated and watch the glamourous view on the car's window...
it's amazing and great..

yam cha with cc

haha,
really met him randomly
we met due to the vegetarian cake
he asked me where can buy the vegetarian cake...
sweating (= ='')
how i know???
actually if you eat egg, you can eat normal cake...
the difference between them is one with eggs and one without egg.
so i asked him whether his friend eats egg or not...
but then he said he don't know ><
since i'm on the way driving to buy my lunch
so i helped him spy around...
then i found out las toast has sold.
but then he can't find the place...
he asked me how to go....
oh..
this must be a millennium joke in this world...
i don't know how to direct people ><
so have to drive back to the place from my house.
however he didn't buy the vegetarian cake since his friend can egg cake (=='')
sweat-ing

after we bought the cake and we went old town yam cha and IOI Mall
we crapped a lot...
haha,
even from pha-Max to pha-LIM also.

wheezzz
i will open a company named as pha-LIM
v(^.^)v

wake up!!! ><

oh my gosh...
i think this break is too long for me....
i really forget how to memorize or the ways to rush my assignments...
feel my life like the burst up balloon...
after "pop" then become nothing...

i know this break is the critical moment for me to reinforce...
but how if i can't stuck anything inside my mind...
when i hold the books...
will seriously feel bored...
what can i do?!!!
really clueless...

PLS:
i need study mode!!!
but how to turn it on???!!!!

can you talk 2 me, my dearest wallet?!!!

my dearest wallet...
i'm your owner!!!!
why you pretend dun know me??!!!!
i feel sore...
you know??!!!

haha,
i know i'm wrong since i always let you separate with your friends...
i know you need friendship too....
seriously,
i'm sorry....

hmm...
you don't worry,
i promise...
one day i will bring other friends and intro to you, okay??!!!
so please talk 2 me...
you really quiet recently...
i miss your friends...
you know where they are???!!!!!
if can,
i wish to find them back to you....

迷雾

望着车窗的倒影
刀鑿般的脸孔
深邃的眼神
呢喃倾述的表情
瞬时
迷惑了我

车外的晚霞
亦显得格外逊色
四周弥漫着久挥不散的迷雾
就似我对你的思念
挥散不去...

何时
风姐姐才能把我心中的迷雾
徐徐地吹散

pls：
风姐姐，
你在哪儿?!!!

mission accomplish ^^

hey,
2day last day working at sri.riwayat. V(^.^)V
when the clock points at 6:30pm sharp,
the feeling of that time is...
after i force myself drink a cup of 100plus on the spot....
very comfortable but hardly say a word...
no word can express how i feel at the moment...
i can't scream since i need to remain my reputation.
i can't shout loud since the parents around will thought i'm crazy...
i hold all my strong desires tightly...
i din scream, shout, yell, or even scold my kids...
i just let it go peacefully...
watching at my kids and say goodbye inside my heart...
Goodbye, my kids...
i wouldn't come back anymore.
haha....
i'm swearing...

sweating...
when i hear my kids want to bully the teacher,
so i will come back again....
haha....
i'm now praying for you all...
hope the new teacher is fierce enough...
hohoho,
then you all will regret to lost a good teacher like me...

yeah,
there is no more nightmares......
yeah,
there is no more teacher lim...
yeah,
there is no more war...
yeah,
there is an over...
yeah,
i'm crazy.

-不存在的女儿-

呵呵,
初阅读这本书的时候,
自己就像一个疯子般急切的把自己投入于书的漩涡里.
过了不久,
就开始从漩涡里挣扎出来了.
真的真的真的,
万万真的想不到自己梦寐以求的书,
故事情节既然是如此般的出乎意料,
失望呀!!!

唉,
我理想中的它,
应该是这样的...

当若拉走不出女儿已夭折的阴影,
若拉该带点神经质,
甚至连呼吸都会感受到她的存在,
活于精神崩溃边缘,
可是保护儿子的欲望却让她存活下来,
替她填补部分内心深处莫名的失落
可儿子长期活于双胞胎妹妹的阴霾下,
活得没有自我,
开始学会反抗了,
对年纪若同的女孩会有暴力倾向.

大卫呢??
则存于人心惶惶之间,
故事里的他实在太太太静谧且是个好好先生,
有点禅的味儿.
我觉得当他活在生活的煎熬下,
肯定会沉不住气了,
当他看见年纪与儿子相邻的女孩,
总有把它拍下来的欲望,
想那天编制成一本相簿给他妻子.
企图填补妻子心灵上创伤;
或许长期活于人心惶惶之间,
深怕那天秘密会揭开,
最后,
他成了个疯子...

哈哈,
还有其他的点子,
懒惰把它写成文字了.
唉,
多么渴望没看过只本书,
现在所有的幻想都落空了,
好失落耶. ><

pls;
看了两回,
感觉依旧,
失望透顶...

A bit random

haha,
very funny~~
i'm holding justice for my students through msn...
who ask her always talk nonsense about my students in school...
always ask my student propose to my another student...
give her a great lesson just now...
haha...
only i can say them is a couple. ：P

PLs:
yeah,
i like the words i say
"i'm still is teacher lim till next mon, so must teach u all some education stuff..."
i'm really not bad ^^

不存在的女儿

哈哈，
我终于狠下心来买了一本我渴望已久的书，《不存在的女儿》。
当然得付出点代价，
现在干瘪的钱包正对我做无声的抗议 （= =）’
小小眼儿干瞪着我 ><

不过，
看完了还真失望耶！！！
现在，
不止觉得空虚，
心还莫名的痛了起来，
为我失去的钱姐妹们哀悼。

内容嘛？？
真的一般而已，
甚至有点空洞，
或许被觉引人入胜的大纲给欺骗了。
唉，
中间呢？？！！！
有点无聊，
只是到了最后有点小感动。
笔者最成功的地方就是能让读者带着淡淡的忧愁就这样而已。
也因为这样，
心忧郁了一会儿，
觉得自己的问题没什么大了的。
呜呼哀哉～

LaSt dAy

hey,
reali can't believe it!!!!!
i'm now slowly floating from the helL already,
the war is going to end soon.
finally can put an end to sorrow, depressed, frustrated, tear and so on
i'm very excited now,
but i know in the remaining 5hours n 30min later,
still is a challenge for me.

haiz,
i hope those mangkuk can let me have a memorable last day.
just one day.
can you all do that???!!!!
Hope so,
but i know this will be the hardest mission in this world.

yeah,
i'm just dreaming...
this time i know...
I NEVER HAVE A DREAM COME TRUE.

pls:
oohhhhh...
now is 12:01,
i'm going to face a war...
God bless.

puzzle

day by day,
suddenly found out...
the pieces of the puzzle has no more in solidarity,
starting dropping down,
one by one
slowly...

i'm stunt,
feel all my hardship has gone,
i'm scared
and just keep on running...

i'm just watching
by staying aside,
watching the people around there
stealing my pieces...
or even stepping across them.
but i do nothing.
i'm just laughing.

it's a dream...
or
just a joke.


Pls:
puzzle,
no matter how hard you play,
it will be imperfect if u have lost some of the pieces,
or just even lost one piece.

-CouNt d0Wn-
-2 days-

gAthErIng wIf high schooL fRieNd ^^

wheezz...
2day having gathering with gzp, jack, stanley, han fei
a bit sad lo,
oni five mangkuk oni...
the rest like missing. ><
haiz...
evans, cc, robin, pei pei, zc all cnt come~~~
last time v hang out like a huge gang wan~~

haha, bt den 2day finali see stanley's face already~~
since last time he said he bcum veli leng zhai wo~~
2day finali see...
haha...
finali see his new style alr...

wheezz....
first v having lunch in wong kok thr...
oh gosh,
the air-conditioner thr reali make me all my cold sweat n hot sweat all come out~~
super hot!!!!
like having free sauna thr ><
haha,
den i talk abt my students~~
having same thoughts with jack!!!
when c kids, wan 2 whack them!!!!
whack whack whack!!!!!
bt den gzp says she very enjoy teaching...
she addict 2 c kid's face after torture by her...(= =)''

haha,
then v hang 2 jusco thr since gzp wan 2 buy HL milk...
wah, den i try the anlene concentrate thr~~
oh my lord!!!!!!
it reali taste good~~~
(err, u all dun have other thought!!!if nt fully dead...)

haha,
den v go movie~~~
yeah,
angels n demons!!!!!
the story reali fascinating!!!!
bt den a bit 2 easy 2 let the professor find out the clue....
a bit fast, not much, can take summore (monkey 2008 )

then v go lepak at popular~~~
haiz...
see plenty of my dream books...
bt den...
last time i jux bought 消失的女儿...
so now my wallet need a break for others...
haha..
reading my harry potter first~~
u all guai guai wait me thr~~
after harry potter,
u guys turn~~ ^^

pls:
2day ioi like a warm oven!!!!
may b they wan us 2 experience the global warming inside first...
then oni v can take measure for it??!!!!
haha...
save the world~~

happy birthday ^^

wheeezzz...
i drove to Mid Valley yesterday!!!!
(= =)"
i totally don't know the way to go.....
hahaha...
luckily bell sit beside me..
if nt, i fully dead ( chicken 2008)
haha....
she quite worry when see i don't know the way~~
haiyo...
bt den her bf quite bad lo~~
he told bell "yi lu shun feng" when he knew i drove her thr....
pls lo~~
i got bit skill wan leh!!!
yeah~~
one thing 2 clarify here~~
my parking skill improve alr!!!!!
haha...
i settle my car park on the spot~~
very beautiful car parking~~

yeah~~
we go sing k at redbox to celebrate my dear bell bell's birthday... ^^
but then foong very shui wan~~
(oops, foong, pls don't judo me!!!! ><)
reach early n start sing alr...
solo in the room~~
sumore is the song i don't know~~ ><
haha...
actually "blur you" sing with us 2gather...
but then aeroplane after that~~
so lok you dang from six left only three plp here~~
since xian cannot make it while sa at australia~~
but then good ah~~
each plp cn hold one mike
sumore no need hear some sarah's style singing~~
haha...
god bless!!!
jk jk...

haha
we shop later after that~~
then blur you turn up~~
we go makan at secret recipe since bell crave for her appetizer thr...
then after we meet MAE...
then v all go zara since she want buy heels thr...
haha....
then v hanging ard...
wah~~
long time din see her alr ^^
she still rmb the time im study geografy with her~~
gosh~~
i forget about it already (= =)''
haha...
she said she missed the time while craping with me~~
haha...
dont know she rmb apply the falling skill that i crap to her??

haha...
then later we back home since i rush to buy cake for my sis...
yeah~~
i buy tiramisu cake n neacklace for her~~
spent like 39+25bucks only for her!!! (T.T)
(lucikly my bro got sponsor 20bucks for me!!!haha, but then 20bucks contribute to my petrol alr) ><
im quite kind~~
haha...
but then my wallet nt kind to me anymore ><
yeah!!!!!!
im bankrupt again!!!
hahaha...

pLs:
happy birthday 2 my dearest bell bell N my deviL sis ^^

whezz, am i pro crap-ing??!!!

haha,
i really find myself good at crap-ing. XD

hehe...
on phone with yan xin jux now...
hmm...
a person that i know within half days...
we know each other when the time we had interview in UCSI
then we can talk like chicken already~~
we both quit look 4ward for 2July~~
haiz...
but then she said orientation day quite bored wo~~
haha...
don't know la~~
c how la~~
hope can get fun during that time~~

PlS:
Hope UCSI can accept her IELTS result...
all the best to her ^^

唉

2天+ 4天= 6天！！！！
这意味着我只需要做高级kakak多六天就好了～～
不过，
可我度日如年啊！！！
六天不就六年了吗？？！
呜呼哀哉！！！！！！！
唉～～～

伊人

伊人啊！！！
汝终于来替吾之置！！！
吾可是盼得望穿秋水啊！！！

伊人啊！！！
吾对汝可深激至，
泪满衫呀！！！

伊人啊！！
未能即将此江山拱手相让予伊人，
吾常蹉吁矣。

伊人啊！
四日以后，
我可就在远方；
可伊人啊！
汝就在这方！

伊人啊！
吾可有千种风情对汝倾述，
可又不知从何说起，
只想对伊人说，
“切珍重啦！”

叶问

哈哈哈，
看完叶问这部戏以后，
还蛮喜欢甄子丹所演绎的叶问的角色耶！
很喜欢他说的那句话，
“咏春武术博大精深，综合了武术与儒术思想...” （就类似这样的意思）
哈哈哈，
就因结合了儒术的思想，
他没了习武之人的戾气，可却又多了一份儒家的出世。
就很喜欢他那横眉冷对千夫指，俯首甘为孺子牛的气质。

当闻自己同胞陷于苦难中，
勇于入世，
沸腾着热血澎湃的心，
捍卫着咱们的名族，
唤醒了沉睡中的我们，
激起了捍卫祖国的浪花，
而这股汹涌的浪涛就这样永不磨灭的世袭着，
直到现今...

wheezz, siNg k wif a buFfALo n chiCkEN

In the earlier morning...
im gotta wake up 2 work alr....
bt den 2day have different feelings...
bcos normali i shout out loud n say...
"arrghhhhhh, i dun wan wake up n dun wan 2 work!!!!!!!!!!"
den 2day so excited 2 work~~
bcos finali cn go out sing k alr...

den 2day teaching the students...
feel tired oso...
since need 2 teach him math (divide)
gosh!!!!!!!!!
teach him 4 so many days...
he stil cnt get it ><
"ei, u do faster la"
"haiz, u faster calculate la"
hahaha...
so sorry 4 him la...
im rushing my time la!!!

den after i change my clothes...
my kids ask me
"teacher, u wear like tis wan 2 go marry a???"
"teacher, u go dating a???"
OMG!!!!!!
my cold sweat n hot sweat all come out...

hehe,
so sad 4 da buffalo since she nid 2 wait me like 1 hour at taylors thr...
(bt den i try my best 2 speed thr alr...)

hahaha...
take few minutes 2 beautified my parking...
quite good alr de la if compare with last time...
den v go red box book the room frm 2pm to 5pm n later go sakae sushi 4 lunch...
hahaha..
my beauty pic stil with buffalo...

wheezz....
after makan...
v go buy oak coal cream at watson thr..
( pls: da cream better performance well on a buffalo face, if nt i wil b fully dead!!!! ><")
den buffalo's hp ringing!!!
haha...
is chicken song~~~
so cn guess who is it la....
den v go find him...
yEah!!!
den v go sing k~~~

wah~~
since thr hs 3 mikes...
so each of us cn hold one mike~~
haha...
finali cn shout out~~~
since i hav jailed in2 a enclosed place 4 a long long time...
cn release here alr....

den after v go sing k...
v go watch mv...
The Mall Corp- Paul Blart
the mv is veli funny
da chicken n buffalo thk tat its quite pointless...
bt den i thk is i got theme leh.
" 行行出状元"
haha...
later v go secret recipe 2 celebrate chicken's birthady...
hmm...
consider celebrate la...
haha...
since got a cake thr...
aiyo....
千里送鹅毛，礼轻情意重
haha....
if who speak 2 me tis, i wil let da person fully dead...
haha..
jk jk...

den later i send da buffalo 2 old town thr...
hehe...
a bit nt touching...
the banana man din bring second episod 4 me~~
hahaha..
i tell myself if next time 4get 2 bring oso...
i wil ask da monkey veen eat u~~
oh my gosh!!!
a buffalo is going 2 whack me...
"hey, dee, dun la....pain pain pain" (cat 2008)

金刚经 ^^

看完金刚经感觉还不错耶！！
在生活上有了很多的感触，
自己检讨了良久，
才发现自己真的太执着于某种事物了，
把自己弄得非常的紧迫，
紧张兮兮的，
总觉得生活的很郁闷，
抑或紧绷，
经常透不过气来，
现在总算豁然开朗起来了。^^

或许一切就如《shamman king》麻仓叶所说的，
“船到桥头自然直”吧！！！
一些都随缘，
让一切苦恼都随风而逝吧！

Pls:
有烦恼的人，
不妨阅读金刚经，抑或解文。
或许有茅塞顿开的感觉哦！！！

以下是金刚经的偈言：
一切有为法，
如梦幻泡影；
如露亦如电，
因作如是观。

若以色见我，
以音声求我；
是人邪行道，
不能见如来。

反所有相，
皆是虚妄；
若见诸相非相，
即见如来。

金刚经说一切世间事物空幻不实，实相者即是非相；主张认识离一切诸相而无所住，即放弃对现实世界的认知和追求，以般若智慧契证空性，破除一切名相，从而达到不执着于任何一物而体认诸法实相的境地。

（BEIJING GUOXUE TIMES CULTURE TRANSMISSION CO.LTD 2007）

Sodium laureth sulfate

haha...
yesterday i go buy loreal shampoo...
then 2day open mailbox n find out that it contain sodium laureth sulphate...
the e-mail stated that it contains carcinogen chemical n will cause cancer...
so should be stopped using leh...

haiz...
i feel myself so unlucky...
spent almost 30bucks for it ><
so i go find out whether is truth o nt~~
haha,
jux find out that SLS contain carcinogen is myth!!!!!!!!!

Questions and answers:
Q: Is sodium laureth sulfate commonly found in shampoos and toothpastes?
A: Shampoos, yes;toothpastes, no.

Q: Is sodium laureth sulfate known to cause cancer?
A: No. The chemical does not appear on any official list of known or suspected carcinogens.

Q: Is sodium laureth sulfate properly abbreviated as "SLS?"
A: No. The correct abbreviation is "SLES." The chain letter confuses this compound with another: sodium lauryl sulfate, which is abbreviated "SLS." The two substances are related, but not the same.

Q: Is sodium laureth sulfate used to scrub garage floors?
A: No.

Q: What about the other one - sodium lauryl sulfate - is it used to scrub garage floors?
A: No doubt! SLS is a powerful surfactant (wetting agent) and detergent. It has industrial uses, but is also commonly found in lesser concentrations in shampoos, toothpastes, shaving creams, etc.

Q: Ah. Well, then, is SLS a known carcinogen?
A: No. But it's not as harmless as SLES. Sodium lauryl sulfate is a skin and eye irritant and can cause dermatitis with prolonged contact. Results of some tests on animal tissues indicate that it can cause abnormal cell mutations, though I've seen conflicting evidence.

Q: Would a manufacturer freely admit to consumers, as claimed in the message, that it knowingly uses a carcinogen in its products "because we need that substance to produce foam?"
A: Are you kidding? Of course not!

(Personal Care Product Council 2003)

thought after EU

"我宁愿相信，你对我所有的爱都是真的。因为相信爱情的人是最幸福的。"

haha....
after watch da last episod E.U..
reali cnt hold my tears....
so romantic...
hope they cn meet 2gather!!!!
jux like one day....
da seperated tree wil bind 2gather...^^

PlS:
2day feeling super complicated...
bt den after cry....
feel myself comfortable a bit...

-C0uNt d0wN-
-16days-

yeAH ^^

haha,
2day i feel quite happy alr....
bcos my students finally got improvement alr!!!!!!!
super ASSURE abt it ^^
i thk i hav almost covered his syllabus alr....
hope he cn score high mark in his next month exam...
now need 2 revise BM 4 him oni...
hehe....
i feel myself nt bad...
save a helpless student's life ^^
at least my hardship 2 him has gained back ~~~
haha...
keep it up!!!!!!!!!!

PLS:
its veli hard 2 teach him....
bt i hav lots of fun with him....
since he reali a good actor o performancer....

a memorable day ^^

3.5.2009
a raining fri....
bt den is a sunny day 4 me!!!!!!!!
y??!!!
hahaha...
2day is the day i tell my boss i wan resign!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAH!!!!!!!!!
super happy wen tell it...
bt den seriously.....
i feel a bit sad after that...
since i cnt accompany my kids anymore.....
haha...
stupid feelings......

-COuNtd0WN-
-19days-
-89days-

sWeAt- ING

haha...
2day is raining heavily sumore got storm in my working area.....
some of da kids scare of da storm...
so they cum 2 hug me while hear it....
all of tis nt da main point....
da main point is....
u all will never ever thk of it ....
a bit funny...
i cnt stop laughing after it...
its reali extreme silly....
here is it....

a kid comes forward to me...
since im wearing jacket...
so i thk he wan 2 lend it...
bt den he is weird bcos his hand cover his private organ....
so i ask him wat he wan~~
den he say
"teacher lim, tis part feel veli cool"
den i stunt thr....
later i laugh like chicken alr...
i reali never heard plp say 2 me b4...

den i say...
"u got wear one more pant la"
haha...
he reali goes wear it....
den half way....
he dun wan wear alr...
i also dont know y~~

Pls:
this kid i reali speechless 2 him....
all of his things alwaz messy wan...
den all of his exercise o even textbook sure hav some holes n dirty spot wan....
reali feel sweat while c him....

haha...
u all know wat is his form teacher form???
his form teacher pointed his head n said...
"bcos of you, my grey hair is starting 2 grow"





Another thing makes me feel sweat is....
i hav a standard one studnet stiol dun know hw 2 spell his name now...
OMG...
u teach me hw la!!!!!!!
wat cn i do 4 now???!!!!

CouNt d0WN -26 days- N -100 days-