i wAn qUit my j0B!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz....
wen time getting pass...
l dun like my job as day care teacher....
i treat da kids well bt den ends up wif sth i dun wish 2 happen on me...
my strong feelings 2wards my kids has faded....
jux wanna 2 quit my job ASAP....
bcos...
wen i feel betray n get hurt from my kids
den i feel uncomfortable wif them alr...
N
my mind keep on repeating "JUX QUIT MY JOB"
tis keep on enlarging in my mind wen my kids make me feel unhappy...

PLs:
recently i hav 2 much negative thoughts influence me alr...
hope everything wil get over soon...
i reali feel like stay in a breathless atm....

fluctuating m00d

arghhhh......
i feel veli breathless now!!!!!!!!!
i reali suffer these dayzzz....
if i say im nt worry abt my interview is reali lying wan...
i super scare of it!!!!!
wat 2 do???
i thk of it til crazy alr...
even tat day after i go register den i start worry n blur on da way home....
N i hav done sth veli silly!!!!
bcos my bro fetch me buy da economic rice near my hse...
den after i reach home i oni realise i tak one extra pack of economic rice...
haiz...
i even dun noe i hold 2 pack of rice....
haha
so soli da da aunt la...
eat "ba wong chan"

Pls:
even now i like no mood on my job alr...
feel veli tired of it...
haiz...

registration ^^

hmm...
jx reliase 2day is 17JAN...
17 reali bring me many thingzz

in da earli morning den my bro fetch me 2 ucsi 4 registration my course...
since i cum at 9am den i nid 2 wait til 10pm bcos da department open at 10am
den my bro ask me "zap sum" bcos he g0t class thr....
so i go library....
errr....
thr SUPER bored!!!!!!
nothing 2 do wan!!!!!!!!!!!
den i jux simply tak a book n read...
without few seconds....
i jux fall asleep....
haha...
den like 10sth go register...

hehe...
when i move 2 da deparment den feel blur alr..
bcos c many "stalls" thr...
den later i noe 2day is da open day 4 ucsi
my eyes keep on looking 4 mr. choong wai seng....
he quite a nice guyz...
bcos wen i approah him den he stil rmb me...
feel veli touching oso....
haha
if nt i oso dun noe wat 2 say later....
bt feel paiseh since now i oni noe his name after he giv me his name card...
den he register me n bring me counter thr 2 pay registration fee..
hehe
my hands is shaking while pay da 600bucks....
oya!!!
i feel veli touching when i get free gift!!!
sumore is a RED colour shirt!!!!
cn wear in CNY...

PLS:
i got interview after CNY.....
so hope cn PASS da short chem test n interview...
den cn directly get a seat thr. ^^

A n3w YeAr beGiN ^^

A new year is beginning now
den a new chapter is blank which den waiting 4 me 2 write sth veli meaningful on it...
wat im going 2 do on it???
i jux like wan 2 paint it wif colourful.
N3w y3Ar = N3w liF3 = N3w b0Rn

den look ard my friends...
most of them hav settled their own problems b4 da new year...
N now they jux nid sometimes 2 let it go...
hope they all cn overcome those problems...
tak care ^^

Me???
stil da same....
brings da problems stick on me in tis year...
bt den i hav clear my mind 2 let it go...
of cos i nid sum time...
sth is cnt say wan 2 4get den cn 4get wan ma...

pls:
No matter how...
i wan enjoy tis year!!!!!!!!!
its my first year uni life...
i reali look 4ward on it ^^
hope everything wil get smooth...

nEw yeAR ^^

haha...
feel sorry cnt count down wif mie jie they all leh...
who ask me hs da weak body leh...
den my mum restrict me cnt go out at nite alr from da day i sick...

hehe...
bt den i stil go visit u ma after i go ucsi wif a gong n hoong...
dun noe mie jie feel touching o nt leh...
so many plp cum 2 visit u in ur lonely shop thr~~
sumore i buy a set of clothes from u~~
sure mie jie feel touch til hide sumwhr n cry after i go bek wan...
haha...
play wif her bro n cousinzz...
quite funzz oso...

den at nite after bek home...
my dad fetch me buy medi 2 cure my flu n cough...
haiz...
after eat...
feel veli suffer n go sleep...
bt den like wen ard 12....
g0t many soundzzzz pop out n wake me up....
hmm...
act nt da sound wake me up is i feel hungry after take da medi...
den wen i eat half...
mie jie call me....
hehe....
feel veli touching bcos mie jie din 4get me even she hav funz with they all...

pls:
if i cn,
i hope i cn 4get those sorrowness in 2008 n hav a new start life in 2009!!!
hehe...
i hav settle few thingz b4 da year end...
i quite respect myself tat i cn do tat oso....
hehe...
im nt bad ya!!!

SickNesS = my BEST friends

y i so unlucky wan...
alwaz get sick de....
after sick 10dayzz during da exam tat time...
stil nt enough!!!!
now fall sick again...
N recover di den stil left FLU N COUGH accompany me here...

den after tak medi...
feel da whole body nt comfortable n feel fall asleep.....
arghhhh.....
tats y i dun like 2 tak medi!!!!!!!!!!
after tak medi nt cure oso sumore feel like tasteless...
let me feel like wan 2 fall sick again....
haiz...
wat is tis...
an endless series of sickness on me....
a bit random leh...
i cnt tak sumore leh...
its 2 much 4 me...

pls:
those sickness like noe me im veli lonely now....
so everybody is like wan me feel more touching...
so all fly here teman me n dun wan go bek de...
they reali me treat me veli nice!!!
im feel touching til wan 2 cry alr...

is my future stil bright enugh??

haiz....

stil rmb wen da day 17dec2008

wen mie jie tell me my TER get 77sth in da earli morning...

i feel SUPER sad after tat...

almost burst out tat day....

da 77 words like TWO Sharp knifes cut my heart in2 pieces...
n keep on enlarge in my mind, my heart n my soul...

feel veli SORE n STRENGTHLESS n PAIN n EM0 n SORROW n FRUSTRATED

tat day i wan cry out bt den cnt....

bcos i tell my parents da result wil release on 24dec

stil nid pretend super hepi n like nothing...

tat nite is a long, silent n suffering nite....

luckily a gong fetch hoong fly here...

den make me feel relieve a bit...

haha...

i noe both mangkuk hs their own problems oso...

bt den they stil fly here...
quite touching...
(hehe, bt den feel nt touching wen going bek home bcos a gong cnt start da car's engine, den i call vv 4 help~~haha, luckily cn start da enginee after a while...)

haiz....

den i giv my time 2 accept da BLOODY truth 4 few dayzz....

those dayzzz i reali like da emoless person....

cnt smile n cry...

even my students ask me wat happen on me...

haiz....

i ask myself continuosly....

if tat day i din get sick???

will i performance better???

no one cn tell me de answer bcos all hs bcum history...

all i cn do is accept da reality n find out da ways 2 solve it....
N i cnt blame da results bad due 2 my sickness....
its reali irresponsible....
jux make me FEEL myself USELESS oni....

act quite thanx a gong help me 2 call ucsi n sumore fetch hoong n me 2 ucsi thr 2 ask 4 da pharmacy course....

i reali appreciate yr kindness....

now i like feel relieve a bit...

bcos thr is stil hs da hope 2 enter pharmacy course....

N now wat i cn do is...

DO WELL in my interview....

if da interview successful den i wil straight away get a seat in UCSI thr...

den i wil start school at 2July...

God bLesS ^^

N

now i oso wan 2 submit my application form 2 aimst...

if i cn enter aimst...

den i ma cn stay wif buffalo alr...

haha....

DEN

if i hav NO FATE wif both uni...

den i wil choose biomedical in either IMU o taylors

Pls:
May g0d bLesS mE...
Hope i cn enter pharmacy course bcos i REALI LIKE it.....