is my future stil bright enugh??

haiz....

stil rmb wen da day 17dec2008

wen mie jie tell me my TER get 77sth in da earli morning...

i feel SUPER sad after tat...

almost burst out tat day....

da 77 words like TWO Sharp knifes cut my heart in2 pieces...
n keep on enlarge in my mind, my heart n my soul...

feel veli SORE n STRENGTHLESS n PAIN n EM0 n SORROW n FRUSTRATED

tat day i wan cry out bt den cnt....

bcos i tell my parents da result wil release on 24dec

stil nid pretend super hepi n like nothing...

tat nite is a long, silent n suffering nite....

luckily a gong fetch hoong fly here...

den make me feel relieve a bit...

haha...

i noe both mangkuk hs their own problems oso...

bt den they stil fly here...
quite touching...
(hehe, bt den feel nt touching wen going bek home bcos a gong cnt start da car's engine, den i call vv 4 help~~haha, luckily cn start da enginee after a while...)

haiz....

den i giv my time 2 accept da BLOODY truth 4 few dayzz....

those dayzzz i reali like da emoless person....

cnt smile n cry...

even my students ask me wat happen on me...

haiz....

i ask myself continuosly....

if tat day i din get sick???

will i performance better???

no one cn tell me de answer bcos all hs bcum history...

all i cn do is accept da reality n find out da ways 2 solve it....
N i cnt blame da results bad due 2 my sickness....
its reali irresponsible....
jux make me FEEL myself USELESS oni....

act quite thanx a gong help me 2 call ucsi n sumore fetch hoong n me 2 ucsi thr 2 ask 4 da pharmacy course....

i reali appreciate yr kindness....

now i like feel relieve a bit...

bcos thr is stil hs da hope 2 enter pharmacy course....

N now wat i cn do is...

DO WELL in my interview....

if da interview successful den i wil straight away get a seat in UCSI thr...

den i wil start school at 2July...

God bLesS ^^

N

now i oso wan 2 submit my application form 2 aimst...

if i cn enter aimst...

den i ma cn stay wif buffalo alr...

haha....

DEN

if i hav NO FATE wif both uni...

den i wil choose biomedical in either IMU o taylors

Pls:
May g0d bLesS mE...
Hope i cn enter pharmacy course bcos i REALI LIKE it.....